rainy days

i'm not a melodramatic person. I think i'm actually very level headed. So when I get emotional and depressed, i get worried.

what i can only describe as an overwhelming sense of aloneness, self-pity and uselessness has overtaken me with increasing frequency lately.

rainy days when it seems like far too much effort to get liam together to go out are the worst.

blah.

we do the same things over and over and over - routine i suppose for liam - boredom for me. I need to do something. tomorrow back to the gym again - maybe i'll find someone willing to put up with me for an hour to have coffee with........